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Jan. 6th, 2017

Don't read fb if you want a quiet evening. I mentioned my old friend Alan had killed himself 2 weeks ago... well things just got ugly.
The cast:
Alan / old friend, then not so much but once a friend.
Kelly / his wife -once a friend
Laura / Kelly's sister- a friend
Noel / Kelly's sister - part of artist community I am in. Sort of friend? Acquaintance. Not anymore. Oh, in a relationship with an abusive Man who asked me out when they were apart for a bit & she had a restraining order against him (I said no & she does not know)

Noel just posted a message on fb saying Kelly murdered Alan. Laura freaked out and said delete this now. Noel kept going on & on saying Kelly was just using Alan for money & she was with her other lovers (they did have an open marriage which I do not personally get but that was their choice) & implying that Laura was in love with Alan (I do not believe that, she loved him, he was her bil whom she had known for 25 years) and .. it was awful. I finally told her that this was not an appropriate conversation for fb & she was hurting Laura.

1) Alan had a history of depression. While I was shocked this happened & everyone was, it was not unimaginable.& there were signs. There always are even if you do not see them until later.
2) Noel is mentally ill, Moreso than Alan was, & this is not the 1st time she has pulled a stunt like this but it is the worst.
3) Noel had been angsting all over fb about his death when I am pretty sure she was not speaking to either of them until he died. & I believe she threatened to kill them at one point when she was mad at them. Not that anyone believed her, they just believed that she was bat shit crazy.

Geez I do not really know what Kelly has been going thru -other than hell -but I have spoken to Laura who is devastated about Alan & now her own sister does this? Who the fuck accuses their sister of murder on fb?
Quiet New Year's Eve at home reading a book. AUDIN went to his favorite pub & read his book - Stalin & the bomb. I was reading an agent Pendergast novel. And drinking a sweet tea vodka martini. I went U.K. Sleep before midnight but was awoken by fireworks our stupid neighbors were setting off. I wondered about Sigrun but did not get up to check in her. I did get up at 4am for a snack & she came rocketing up the basement stairs asking for treats so I guess she had been hiding for 4 hours. AUDIN came home with phone photos of the hedgehog & cat who were at the bar. Who takes a cat to a bar? The hedgehog was a white one - cute. The one I had was not
Very friendly. He bit. In general I do not think they make the best pets are they are fairly antisocial.

I got up & did some overdue cleaning while I wanted for AUDIN to emerge from his lair. We went out to breakfast & the coffee is weak today which seems unwise on New Year's Day.
Christmas morning AUDIN & I went out to a French cafe with our friends Sam & Sharon. The coffee was great & it was very quiet & relaxing. I think there was nutmeg in my omelet. It was good. Parking was great which is not usually the case on capital hill. Then we stopped by the Scandinavian store so he could get treats for his family & I got some too. I probably should have gotten some cookies but they were sold out of krumkake & frystakake. AUDIN said he brought home some leafed from his mom's. I made cheesecake truffles - which were easy to make and could be easy make gluten free but not dairy free. The recipe is in the kraft website - they make Philadelphia cream cheese. My mom came up and we sat on the couch with Sigrun for a while. AUDIN had already gone south by then. Sigrun was so sweet to linger as she isn't much of a lap cat. Then we went to my 2nd cousin's house who lives 2 blocks from me. They have a 3 year old & a 5 year old. Both boys. The little boys gave a special bag they leave under the tree called the giving bag & they pick out toys to give yo santa for santa to give yo other kids. They also left santa fizzy water & celery & watermelon.

I spent xmas night at my parent's. old people logic - smoke alarm has been beeping for 4 days, they are too short to teach it & it does not bother them so they just left it. I was not sure what room it was in so I left it too but did it sleep well. Found I Saturday morning & removed battery. They did not have any more 9 volts so my stepsister said she will replace it today. (No-not worried about fire, in that part of house there are 4 smoke alarms w/I a few feet of each other. There are 3 small bedrooms & a hall right next to each other & all have alarms.) then the sink plugged after dinner, a new holiday tradition. We used all the draino on thasgiving so I suggested a plunger & that worked.

Mom made potroast with onions & carrots & potatoes & my stepsister made rolls & apple pie. It was just my parents & my stepsister Nancy & me. Very quiet. We talked mostly about the love in 6ish weeks, what day to move, what to keep, what to get rid of, who would do what, etc. I helped mom go thru some stuff & put 3 boxes of weaving magazines in her car that will be donated to one of her weaving guilds (she will still have access) & we filled a box and a half of cookbooks to donate. I took a few. Of course she is still trying to save small pieces of string - this is a woman with an entire wall of yarn. She took 11 handwoven scarfs on xmas eve & gave 9 to family. Everyone seemed to like them. They should - they are gorgeous scarves that would cost $200 & up - lots of hand painted warps, silk, chinille, undulated twill & done iredescents. I got 2 at thanksgiving.

It appears I am being assigned to unpacking & organizing, not physically moving, whew. I feel embarrassed. It just carrying those boxes of books wore me out & highlighted how I need to find an iron supplement I can take because this is not normal.

My stepsister gave me a ride some. Sigrun had been alone overnight with plenty of food but she was so happy to see her people. AUDIN had spent the night in Olympia. It was nice to sleep in my own bed. My mom talks a lot & the tv is always on so quiet is nice. Back to work tomorrow. Do not know when I will see Peter & hope to see Janusz but I do not know.. I have gifts for them. Peter got the kids a 10 week Newfoundland puppy named Kiki, I hope I get To meet her.

Nov. 20th, 2016

this is the floorplan of my parent's new condo. it has a view of puget sound too.

Nov. 19th, 2016

Although I was really tired & recovering from an ibs attack thu pm / fri am, I went to the craft night at push / pull. The craft was shrinky dinks. I am still learning the ropes but made some cool stuff. There is a photo on fb. There are. Few more I will take a photo of today. It was fun.

This is the place my parents are moving to

http://www.judsonpark.com/ They are getting a 2 br apartment with a view. 1 br is for the loom.
My hairdresser took this photo. I will take some showing the front tomorrow when it is light. She combined orange, red, & magenta. & there is still s lot of undyed hair that is brown and white.
Gino has been our work team lead for just under 2 Months & has not been doing a good job. He is very disorganized & arrogant & Just not keeping things going smoothly. Most of the department has gone to HR about him. Today we were told our daily departmental meeting was in the conference room & our manager nick & hr lady were also there.

Gino announced that it was his history at abc to come into a department, get everything ship shape & then move onto the next department & he was moving to the international department because they really needed him. This does not even mAke sense. He temped in a few departments before starting in Efiling where he was hired & under him things fell apart. When he was a temp he had no authority, I had the impression they kept moving him because they did not find a good fit. They only promoted can him to lead because jesse moved to IT. Nick & Jenny did not back him up on this but they did say international really needs help. So I think this is a demotion he is trying to spin in some other way. Stephanie asked who would be in charge & Nick said he would, only he has too much to do & is not good at details & answering emails & things. She wants to be in charge but it was not offered to her. I do not know if there is any long term plan. Gino moved his stuff already. It could end up being a good thing but I expect a lot of chaos in the meantime & I do not think things will really work without a team lead. Stephanie knows a lot, more than anyone, & would be good in some ways but she is also bossy & controlling & not good with people. And it sounds like they would have offered her the role already if they wanted her for it. They probably want a man. I would never want to do it, even if they would offer it to me which would not happen. Well it is a distraction from thinking about biopsies but I would rather something else. Nick is the one behind the obsession with tracking numbers & doing everything super fast. He is the manager of the whole thing 2nd floor, 5 or 6 teams but they all have leads who are more involved. Except now we don't.
I just had coffee with my friend Tia at cafe chocolati. I had a decaf cherry mocha with whipped cream which was decadent. It was nice to hang out with someone with lupus who understands things like how it feels like you are encased in cement & that your skin hurts. & why sitting on a bus for an hour is exhausting. I did not know anyone with lupus till I met Tia at artwalk last year. More later. I just had to share how nice that was. & we both told each other is would be ok if we had to cancel at the last minute.
Argh. The big bosses want a meeting with my team tomorrow to find out why our numbers suck. It will not be pleasant. I am really glad that my numbers shot up to a decent range last week when they moved us behind a different proxy server to the rest of the company. They would have had meeting today but half of team called in sick which is also bad timing. So glad I was there. Yesterday the whole team got 219 orders done - they want 500 a day. I got 45 done. I know one girl only got 14 done. I have no idea how she managed that but it has been typical of her lately. So I am expecting a stressful day with upset people tomorrow & hoping to avoid bring one if them. The fact that I can clearly document improved performance immediately following the upgrade is certainly on my side. I am glad I had warning this is coming.
Update from AUDIN-

"it isn't a good one.
So he is still quite anemic.
originally he was both anemic and had too many lymphocytes in his blood.
The anemia is still here, but he lymphocyte level has decreased, presumably due to the steroid.
this is an indication of pretty heavy cancer.
Also the mass was removed was indeed cancerous.
So his overall lack of energy is due to cancer.
His skin issue...is due to a fungus.presumably ringworm.
which is really annoying.
but is probably a side-effect of the cancer, which is suppressing his immune system.
I can't afford to give him chemotherapy.
The phrase 'many thousands of dollars' was used.
But I can afford some anti-fungal medication. So they are going to call that into the ballard pharmacy.

But overall I don't think cheeseburger will be around very long.
so that sucks.
and i wish i wouldn't have taken the phone call...because i'd rather have waited to find out."

In related news, maybe I do not have shingles. Maybe I have ringworm.